I’ve been disoriented

I’ve been shuttered

Nothing made sense at all

I’ve been hollowed

Why did you have to leave so sudden

A goodbye would have been better

I wish I held you in my arms as you inhaled your last breath

I wish I heard your last words

Verily , we shall all depart some day , we shall all go away some day , it’s the only sing-song I consoled my shuttered heart with

I thought I was stronger

I thought I would be the shoulder the others you left behind would lean on

I thought I had been through it all

I thought you would be there until your 90’s

Yes, you will be here in my heart as long as I live

I felt the greatest pain cut through my heart

I couldn’t and I wouldn’t ever come to terms with this , this can’t be real

This isn’t you

Could someone wake me and and tell me it was all a nightmare?

I touched my body and face as many times I could

It’s heartbreaking to face the fact that you’re no more with us but you will be with us for the rest of our lives

I wish this story had a fairytale ending

But here you’re laying lifeless

I wish your life was endless

Honestly, you have been selfless

I’ve been hollowed

As much as I tried to fill the empty space you left , I couldn’t, I can’t , I can’t

I’ve been shuttered

I tried to break the icy hands death laid on youo

I’ve been hollowed

I hammered each piece of ice

I warmed each part of the deadly ice

I wrapped all the warmth I could gather on your tender self

There , I realized , its icy hands were eternal, you left without a goodbye

But you know what Champion?

Even as you lay here breathless, I will hold on to all the best memories we had and shared

I will hold on to the love you shared

I will hold on to love

I will hold on to the best part of you than to be shuttered and broke hearted forever